My Wall

There's always something strange when my friends come into my room. Well,, you probably wonder if it is because they see David "the mysterious-freak guy", but not just that, they also see something strange on my wall.

As u can see, my wall isn't like most walls in Indonesia.. It reminds me of a place, a strange place, a place somewhere I watched in a muvee. Hmmm,, a Prison Wall.
Before I tell u more about why on the earth I wrote about my wall (believe me I'm not a "wall lover guy" :p), let me tell u about the history of my wall.

THE HISTORY OF MY WALL - by David Rumeser - :p

LOL,,, i'm joking,,, 'just want 2 tell u a short story about my wall. My wall exist since I rent a room in Cisitu Indah, Bandung, about 5 years ago (maybe 2004). Well actually it exists just now when you read this story (believe me you couldn't find it in google.. :p). First time i saw my room, I saw a weird wall (like the one I saw in prisons). The rock that builds this wall is just very eye-catching. Anyway, I tried 2 live with it... "just think positive, or if u can't, just ignore it", said my heart to my brain or vice versa... well,, I always managed to think positive about it, and said to myself "it's good 2 b different".. until one day the Holy Spirit inspired me 2 do something creative to my wall. He inspired me to make a writing (by pencil).. I wrote "JESUS" on my wall.. And then I wrote "I LOVE" on top of it. Later on, He told me that there's something missing in my wall. He told me to write "me" besides the "I" (I already showed u at my 1'st pics, but if it's not clear yet, I guarantee u'll not miss it on the second pics). Here is it:



JESUS LOVES ME

About one or two years ago, I lived a terrible live, and I left Jesus. I lived but not alive, that's what I felt at that time. "Where's God?", I asked. "Where's love?", I wondered. I'm already a Christian at that time. But still, it all seems useless.

Until one day, a man named Bang Daniel (my spiritual father), knocked my door, and talked to me. He asked what troubled me, and I told him it was my sins. I felt like a loser,,, a Christian loser who failed to be a Christian (2 b a Christ follower). Have u ever felt that way? It's sucks isn't it?

But later on, I don't know where it came from, but I told Bang Daniel about my wall. I don't know why did I do that, but I just did, and the Holy Spirit touched me through my wall.
And then he talked to me gently, "do you know the meaning of ur wall, David?", I was a bit confused, and then he said: "when u look ur wall from top to bottom, u read I love Jesus, but when u look ur wall from bottom to top, u read Jesus loves me". And he kept saying, "when u think that ur life is so holy, and problems are always solved easily, u say I love Jesus easily, but when u commit sins, terrible sins, it's time to open ur eyes and see where u are and where God is,,, u will read the writing from bottom to top saying: 'JESUS LOVES ME' "

and I cried,,,

I'm just like Peter who said that he would die 4 Jesus,, until he denied Him 3 times... Then he realized, that he's not that good..

The story continues,
While I was crying, he asked me to sing a song, "Jesus loves me". So the 3 of us (me, Bang Daniel, and my guitar) sang that song,,, it was a song I never forget. Here's the lyrics:

Jesus Loves Me

Jesus loves me this I know, For the Bible tells me so.
Little ones to Him belong, They are weak, but He is strong.

chorus:
Yes Jesus loves me, Yes Jesus loves me,Yes Jesus loves me,
The Bible tells me so.

Jesus loves me, He who died
Heaven's gates to open wide.
He will wash away my sin, Let His little child come in.
(chorus)

Jesus loves me when I'm good,
When I do the things I should.
Jesus loves me when I'm bad,
Even though it makes him sad.
(chorus)


and I said to myself,,, so this is love...

"This is love: not that we loved God, but that HE LOVED US and sent his Son as
an atoning sacrifice for our sins", 1John4:10.

That wall will not last forever. But, the writing on that wall will last untill eternity.

HOW 'BOUT YOU

I am not a theologian nor an expert in Bible study. But, I experienced Jesus' love for me. I know He's a person. He talks. He hears. He loves. He tells me the future and his secrets. He promises and fulfill it. Lots and lots of stories I want to tell you about this Jesus. But I would like to start my story from here. From a deep black graveyard that kept me away from livin'. And a hand that saves my life.

Simply say this If you want to know him more: "Jesus, I want to know you more."

To live and to be loved is a choice.

Jesus Loves U Friend...

-Glory to God-